ㄚ˙一ㄚˋ Life is a journey, not a destination!

To be honest, what could I do about this?

      


    I'm never satisfied what I've got now. It's really exhausted for me. Everyday I woke up, I just want to sign because I need to go to work. The work content is not so difficult. However, the temper, the attitude of the boss isn't that good. She always scolds someone when she has bad mood. There is no reason for her to scold someone. Even there it is, she shouldn't be so rude to curse someone with "bullshit", "bitch", "garbage" ...etc. And she shouldn't be so emotional to say "I'm so disappointed at you." It's really a big deal when you said to someone who is actually work out something.

    When someone let her down, she just told her "you are not deserve to be trained by company and by me." Honestly, who care? Are you really objective? When she asks someone to do something, all she want to hear is "yes, I can." instead of giving her opinion. She said "who am I? I'm your boss! Why should I listen to you opinion. I've been this industry in so many years. And you're just an assistance! You don't even have the experience to make the right choice. And I got Ph.D. in England, major in MBA. Those customers are my customer for years, and I knew exactly what their personality is. So don't ask me why or wondering! Just do what I said."

    No wondering, she can't keep someone with her. Some of people laid off by her, rest of them want to quit by themselves. She doesn't respect her employee. She treats her employee like animal. Keep slashing them if they don't do what she want. Even, when they are with good performance, she think "it ought to." just because she's the one who paid salary.

    First week I got there, she've asked someone to go. And she asked her to go at the same day. She only have one or two hours to make hangover to me. How could she make handover to me? She need to take some time to digest the bad news. And spending rest of time doing handover and told me what I need to do on daily basis. We work from 9:00~18:00 (except Wednesday) And our general manager sent her massage about "you're not suitable for this company" at approximately 10:00. And she needs to get off the office at 12:00. What kind of GM she is? I don't understand! Who could work for her after receiving all of unrespected behavior.

    After one and half month, GM is actually asking someone to leave again. And before he left, she had told to other employees many times that he wasn't talented enough. And that's the main reason why he got laid off.

    There is always a pattern before she asked someone to go. She would say lot of bad words when she want to lay off someone. Because she want them to quit first so that she don't need to give severance pay. However, just like the senior sales, she is tough. She couldn't be defeated after GM told lots of bad words to customer and cc her saying that "she's half-assed sales, she always misunderstood what customer had said, her english wasn't good enough ...etc." what the hell !!!! That 's not impossible! She has been an international sales for seven years which is not including the time she stay in this company. She just talks black into white. How could she?! Senior sales has been in this company in almost three years. And now she just talked everyone that sales was in bad performance. (yes, she did. she asked all of people to go into her office separately in order to pursuade everyone that the senior sales is the one who made mistake not her. How pity she is!)

    I can't help wondering what kind of future I'll get in this company. Will the GM also blacken my name when she got bored with me or mad with me.
Frankly speaking, there is a lot of thing I need to learn and I could learn. And I'm not willing to give up first before GM ask me to leave. If I quit first, I just admit that I'm in a "strawberry group" indirectly. However, I'm not interested in this industry and I felt a little bit stressed when GM ask me to do what senior sales do.


    Few days ago, I wanted to say:
"In order to be a newcomer in society, all ambition in college has fallen apart. And most of us are collecting scraps for remaking a stronger heart. We may be fragile but we're unbeatable."

    But now, I couldn't be so affirmative. I doubt the consequence of me. After doing so many contribution, the senior sales couldn't hear "thank you" from our boss. "Thank you" are impossible words for GM to speak out after someone decide to leave this company.





This is the first time I wish I don't understand English.